When I was in high school, I read the Bell Jar. Because I was a teenage girl, who didn’t understand why my body and mind were in such conflict. Also it was a bit of a right of passage for my young literary mind.
I think about the Bell Jar whenever I am in a deep funk, or just in the depths of depression, as I am more than I’d like to admit. Especially in the winter months.
The idea behind the Bell Jar is simple. When you are depressed, you are in the Bell Jar, and everything you see is through the negativity that is surrounding you. It’s literally the opposite of wearing rose colored glasses.
When you’re in the bell jar, it is hard to get out. You almost forget there is a way out.
The problem with being in this state is that everything else takes a back seat. The weight loss I’ve been working so hard on, the social media plan I’ve been sticking to, my planning videos, they all become infinitely harder to stick to, and if I’m being completely honest, they all sort of lose their meaning.
When I lose my why, I’ve got nothing.
As the fog begins to lift, all of my why’s come back to me, and I get back on track. That’s where I am right now. Coming out of the bell jar, and getting back into the things I love. Like this blog, and my videos, and all the rest. And it feels really good to be back.